I haven't blogged in awhile...the truth is I've been doing great. I have slip ups and hard days but they're happening less often. My good days are more numerous than my bad days. Every now and then, I'll check out the blogging world and what's going on in the lives of the people I follow here. It depresses me. There's so much hopelessness, and I'm all too familiar with it. Eating disorders are horrible and it breaks my heart to see my friends and those I follow give in to the lies Ed wants you to believe.
I turn off my computer feeling that same hopelessness. It still can suck me in, if I give it any attention. So that's why I haven't been on here much. I am not strong enough yet to be present here and help people...ENCOURAGE others. I want to, but I fall.
I miss all of you. I miss reading your blogs. I'm getting stronger though. I'll come back. Just wanted you lovely people to know. I am well. Weight restored for the past few weeks. I'm learning to be okay with it. I am happy.
<3 rae
