For the past two days, I've been really trying to follow the meal plan my dietician Viv and I made. Both days I purged once, but I feel happy with how well I did. After eating a meal, I'm so proud of myself. Now if I could just stop the purging part...
Even though I'm only eating 700-800 calories a day, I'm still tempted to restrict. Sometimes I look at all the food I'm supposed to eat and I think it's way too much. I have to keep reminding myself it's not THAT much food.
I'm trying, and I think that's what counts. Yes, I still want to lose weight and I don't know how I'm going to react when I actually begin gaining. But for now, I'm just happy I'm making some progress.
Wish me luck!
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ReplyDeleteOh, sweetie *hug* I really feel for you. You sound like how I felt last year, but rather than battling against people around you, you're battling with yourself, and I can't imagine how hard this must be.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm so proud of you for trying. You know this is just something you have to do, and the more you try, the easier things will get. And if it's any comfort, you're eating a tiiiny amount x3 That's the kinda amount to eat if you lie in bed all day, it's the minimum you body needs just to be okay. If you're doing things and moving about, let alone any sort of exercise, you're certainly allowed and, in fact, -need- more.
But you should be so proud of yourself for giving this a go, in a way I look up to you because it's one thing to have people make you recover, it's another to do it yourself. Keep trying, sweet, you -can- do this! xx