Lately it's been easier to blog than to make a youtube video. Something about the way I sound, how I look, etc annoys me. Not to mention, I've been struggling to understand what's been going on inside my head. Explaining my thoughts and feelings on camera isn't really working when I can't even decipher them myself.
I've been doing good lately, I really have, but this weekend has been a challenge for me. There were behaviors I haven't had in awhile and I hated every second of it. I know why I had behaviors too...there's a lot going on right now. Weddings every weekend for the next few weeks, moving out drama...I have so much to do but I keep putting it off because I feel so overwhelmed right now.
One thing I HAVE learned- take one day at a time. Make a plan. Break things down so they don't seem so intimidating. So that's what I'll do.
Doesn't stop me from wishing I could run away from everything though.
Just run here, we will do our best to overwhelm you with support and encouragement.
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ReplyDeleteHello Ohan. I too suffer from this horrible painstaking disease and would be willing to answer your questions. Think it would be nice having someone in the same situation to talk with.
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I know it's a constant battle
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time helps me to stay clean off drugs but I haven't managed to translate that to my eating disorder yet
Stay strong,
Keep fighting,
Never give up x
You are so right. Sometimes it comes down to taking it one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteJust because I've gone through similar behaviors, I think I have an idea of what you're talking about. Be very careful that you don't do it again, because it's hard to resist when you've experienced it again. Do not spiral down; you have gone through so much to back out now. Just like you mentioned, take one day at a time. Tomorrow has enough problems in itself, right? Take one thing at a time, one step at a time.
ReplyDeleteI know how that feels; being unable to understand how you really feel but being overwhelmed by what is going on at the moment. I've been having behaviours everyday these days because of exam pressure....
ReplyDelete".I have so much to do but I keep putting it off because I feel so overwhelmed right now.
ReplyDeleteOne thing I HAVE learned- take one day at a time. Make a plan. Break things down so they don't seem so intimidating. So that's what I'll do.
Doesn't stop me from wishing I could run away from everything though."
Yes yes and yes. I can completely relate to the feelings but also, you have to take it day by day, step by step, task by task...
Sending love :)
~janie from fb
I have only just discovered your blog, and have spent a few hours reading some of your blog. Thank you for sharing with your audience, and please keep it up, it's well-written and informative.
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