Falling by The Civil Wars

I had to make some boundaries today with a dear friend. She's also eating disordered but dead set on her goal weight and doesn't want recovery, whereas I am trying to focus on recovery. We're heading in two different directions and talking on a daily basis isn't working. There's nothing I can say to stop her and when she tries to encourage me, I can't take her seriously because I know she doesn't believe it herself. It's not fun to tell someone you love you can't talk to them for a time. 

Anyways, I almost feel like I just broke up with my (nonexistent) boyfriend. Music helps me FEEL things, so this song in particular has helped express my feelings about this situation. It's a beautiful song and I really encourage you guys to look it up on YT or something!

"Falling"

Haven't you seen me sleep walking?

'Cause I've been holding your hand

Haven't you noticed me drifting?

Oh, let me tell you, I am

Tell me it's nothing

Try to convince me

That I'm not drowning

Oh let me tell you, I am

Please, please tell me you know

I've got to let you go

I can't help falling

Out of love with you

Why am I feeling so guilty?

Why am I holding my breath?

Worry 'bout everyone but me

I just keep losing myself

Tell me it's nothing

Try to convince me

That I'm not drowning

Oh let me tell you, I am

Please, please tell me you know

I've got to let you go

I can't help falling

Out of love with you

Won't you read my mind?

Don't you let me lie here

And die here

Please, please tell me you know

I've got to let you go

I can't help falling

Out of love with you

Haven't you noticed?

I'm sleepwalking