But who am I now? I'm lost. I know God is like, "Hey, I'm over here. Are you going to come to me yet? I'm waiting."
But God, living for you is so hard. You ask for so much, you ask for EVERYTHING.
God says,"Well why won't you try? I ask for everything but I give you so much too. Things you would never find anywhere else. I'm worth it. I'm worth giving up everything."
I'm scared though God. I am so scared.
"I have not given you a spirit of fear or timidity, but of power, love and self discipline."
You've spoken that verse into my life in so many ways.
"I know. I figure maybe one day you'll get."
The problem is fears keep popping up.
"You have to keep giving them to me."
I'll grow weary.
"I'll give you strength."
I'm not cut out for this. What if I give you everything and you completely destroy everything?
"That is not who I am. Come close. You will not regret it."
I know I won't, but the world will tell me I should regret it.
"When you choose me, the world will hate you because it hates me."
God, I'll try. I'll really try. How bout this. I'll give you the week. Every day I'll spend time with you. Every day I'll pray to you. I can do a week.
"That's a start."