Monday, September 16, 2013

Bachelorette Party and Shower!

This weekend was my bachelorette party and bridal shower. The entirety of last week, I was filled with so much self hatred for my body. I was worried it would ruin a fun weekend with friends and family. It didn't. At least not in the moment. I was able to forget how I looked and just enjoy the present. Now I look at pictures that were taken, and am disgusted with my body. I have this fear too...What if I won't be able to lose the weight for my wedding? All I want to lose is five pounds. FIVE POUNDS. It's nothing. I used to be able to lose ten pounds with a snap of my fingers. I don't want to resort to eating disorder behavior though, and it seems so difficult, nay impossible, to lose weight the healthy way. The healthy way takes forever. I'm trying though. I am going to be more active this week, while also trying not to be TOO active. I'm excited to get married, despite the whole weight issue. 26 days! I can't believe it's almost here! Bachelorette party was friday beginning at 2pm. All my lovely bridesmaids met at my matron of honor's house (Andi). We got all dressed up, they wore black and I work a bright turqoise dress. We got a limo for the day and drank champagne will driving around for an hour. It was fun to have them all meet each other, and better yet, LIKE each other. We went to this place that did a private painting class- called Van Gogh and Merlot. How much better can painting get with a glass of Merlot in your hand? We all did surprisingly well, thank God we had a great teacher an a liberally abstract painting to reproduce! Afterwards, we had dinner and met up with some other friends along the way (which happened all night, since not everyone could be there for the whole affair). We went to this classy place called the Safari Room and had a yummy dinner. I had a spicy shrimp, mozzerella, and pesto flatbread. YUM!!!! :P Afterwards, we went to lookout pass to see the city lights. Then we played some fun games and just talked at Andi's house. I barely slept all night. My heart was racing and I had other problems that led to a panic attack in the middle of the night. Overall though, it was a blast! I have amazing friends!! The shower was just plain beautiful. I mean it- beautiful. I loved it. There was 65 people there, even though a bunch of people got a stomach bug. We had a morning brunch tea party, with tea cups, tea sandwiches, scones, and all. It was decorated perfectly and had all the detailed touches that make it so wonderful. People were very impressed and are still talking about it. I loved all the gifts I got and felt blessed. Anyways, I have pictures on my facebook. Maybe I'll post some here sometime??? Thank you all for your advice and support.They mean so much to me!

11 comments:

  1. Oh my, I had NO IDEA you were getting married. Wow. Well, 26 days...I'd be freaking out. But the weight..I'm not going to say calm down because your nerves must be on edge 24/7, but maybe you can exercise to keep the stress under control and feel better about yourself for the big day? I'm sure you'll look beautiful no matter what. Congratulations!!

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  2. Congratulations on your upcoming wedding! You are going to be fine. Enjoy the moment and the memories!

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  3. Congratulations! It sounds like you have wonderful family and friends :) You are pretty wonderful, too! It seems like they know it and your readers/viewers know it. Do you maybe need a minute sometimes to recognize how awesome you are?

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  4. Ohhh pictures please!!! How exciting! Congrats, chica!

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  5. I am so happy for you! I am a little sad for you also...I wish that 5 pounds wasnt distracting you. I know that you know that 5 pounds really isnt going to show or make a difference in the grand scheme of things. I also think that on your wedding day you will be just as capable of being in the moment as you were at these wonderful events! Because...you really deserve it!!!

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  6. First of all, congratulations :)
    I wish you all the best. I know it's easy, we deal with our ED as much as we can and it feels like a ghost always chasing us, but I'm sure you'll ok. You can do it.

    Thanks for sharing.

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  7. I meant "it's not easy", of course lol

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  8. I meant "it's not easy", of course lol

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  9. First of all, congratulations :)
    I wish you all the best. I know it's easy, we deal with our ED as much as we can and it feels like a ghost always chasing us, but I'm sure you'll ok. You can do it.

    Thanks for sharing.

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  10. Is the 5 pounds anything to do with ed and emotions to do with the wedding? If you lost 5 pounds, then you will probably want to lose 5 more. He loves you the way you are, Dani. <3 You look fucking stunning right now. Love you and I hope you make a video update soon. x

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  11. same here... I know that this is bad for me and especially after bad episodes I am so sure and so willing to stop with it and break bad habits
    however, when psychologist puts it in front of me and confront me with real steps and real measures, I cannot stop holding onto it and give it up... and this makes me feel so weak and so miserable

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