I can't wipe the smile off my face. I made a new record as of today- six days without any eating disorder behaviors! I haven't binged, purged, restricted, over-exercised, self-harmed...this is the longest I've gone without purging since I had a feeding tube a year ago. And before the feeding tube, I hadn't been behavior free this long for over a year.
I am so freakin proud of myself. It's a beautiful thing! Has it been easy? HELL NO!!! Did I want to give up? YES. Did I have multiple meltdowns and had to talk myself out of falling deeper into that mental hole that inevitably leads to behaviors? Every day.
Was it worth it? YES.