Friday, April 27, 2012

(hopefully) PMS

Today was just one of those days that really SUCKED. Wednesday and Thursday were the first behavior-filled days in a LONG time. Today was almost just as bad. I'm pretty sure I'm PMSing. Everything seems so overwhelming right now. Small things. I don't feel like I can handle any of it. I feel huge- a monstrosity that belongs in dark corners where shadows veil. How can I go from loving my body and being proud of it to this?

PMS. I better get my period so I can blame it on hormones.

Despite feeling horrible, I can't let these emotions bring me down. I've come too far. So, I'll cry. I'll throw a fit. I'll eat dark chocolate and cry while watching grey's anatomy late into the night. But things will turn around. I won't let Ed take advantage of me while I'm an emotional wreck.

But honestly, sometimes I really hate being a woman.


  1. Hang in there Rae. You have been doing AWESOME. Slip ups are ok,you can get back on track! We all have faith in you!!! I hope tomorrow will be better for you :) Lots of love and hugs xxx

  2. You really have come incredibly far. You are one strong girl! I am still thinking of your last post btw (A Woman's Body) just randomly pops up in my head and has my thoughts go all crazy on me, trying to push me forward. Thank you for that I guess ;) I hope you are feeling much better today! Don't let it get the better of you. You are beautiful. xx

  3. Yeah it sucks being a women, (at times) its just one of those days that everything is more anxious and just like you said pms, (lol) stay strong , we all have slip ups, theres always tomorrow and it will be better. Lots of love and hugs Xoxo breanna

  4. Oh dear, sounds horrible! I've been feeling the same and struggling to fight off behaviours and then I got my period today! You seem like you' doing really well though, keep being strong! Even though it's hard, you always seem to have to fight the hardest when you're weak. You give me strength to keep fighting so lots of love, just be kind to yourself, Hannah xoxoxo (P.S really enjoy you're blog, love how down to earth, honest yet funny you are. Inspiring stuff!)

  5. I'm a 'newbie' to your blog (& your vlogs)... You are a HUGE inspiration to me (& MANY others)!!! Just wanted to 'drop by' & let you know :) Hope you feel better soon!