I was a bit nervous to see Viv today, since I haven't seen her in two weeks and she had no idea about my veganism. Her opinion greatly matters to me and I know someone in the middle of an eating disorder relapse saying they've gone vegan comes across as a red flag. I walked in ready to defend myself, and I think that automatically put Viv on edge.
I first had her read my food journal before I explained the change. I don't think we've ever had such an...interesting session before. Her reaction was confusing to me. She was a bit skeptical and still is I think, but she did acknowledge how it's been successful in reducing behaviors and increasing caloric intake. We were a bit...clashy?? Viv said herself she didn't know why she was so on edge about it all, but promised to think about it. She said she thinks it's because of how OCD and "rigid" I sounded.
She agreed it would be a good idea to do this for another week. I'm supposed to focus on my protein intake, since it isn't enough apparently. She brought out her calculator and did all this math to figure out how much protein, carbs, and fat I should be getting a day for my height/weight.
Protein: 70-80 grams
Fat: 65 grams
Carbohydrates: >200 grams
I thought I only needed 43 grams of protein! I'm glad I'm making this big dietary change with a dietician! I was also convinced I was having too much fat in my diet, so she asked me to show her in my food journal what I've eaten that has a good source of fat. Haha...kind of made a fool of myself. When it's just me, Ed is really good of convincing me I've had way too much fat, calories, you get it. Viv pointed out I was definitely not getting enough fat in my diet, and that's one reason why she thinks I ended up bingeing/purging Sunday (not to mention feeling emotionally down and being off my prozac for four days).
Today has been GREAT though! I'm feeling good and had a semi-productive day :) Thank you all for your comments and support. It's helped me SO SO MUCH!!!