I made a YouTube video yesterday, giving an update on how I've been and my new vegan diet. I KNEW I'd get mixed reactions, but I wasn't expecting how much they would affect me. In fact, I was quite troubled by the negative reactions. Some people said it was just another form of my eating disorder, another person mentioned orthorexia...
I do understand their concern and I'm thankful for everyone's honesty. It made me depressed though and feel like a failure. If this is just another form of my eating disorder, I'm still just as stuck as I was before my vegan diet. A feeling of hopelessness overcame me yesterday. I did end up purging twice in the matter of an hour, which added even more feelings of failure and shame.
After purging, I felt HORRIBLE. In the matter of a week, I have already forgotten how horrible you feel after purging.
You know what? I'm going to stick to my veganism till Easter like planned. Maybe they're right and this is another form of my eating disorder. But I'm not bingeing, not purging, not restricting, and eating regularly. That's got to count for something right? And like my therapist said, if there's any problems we need to deal with about my veganism, than we'll deal with them when we get there, but for now- she thinks this is great!
I think this is great too. I'm feeling so much better and I prefer this over what I was doing before.
Ya. Just thought I'd share :)