Woke up incredibly LATE and could have easily "not had time" to eat breakfast, but I managed to eat something that followed my meal plan on the go. I woke up to three inches of SNOW outside too! SERIOUSLY?! It's spring. Stop snowing already!
Bad body image day. Felt like everything was too tight and everyone could tell. The vibe at work was kind of weird too, but I tried to not let it affect me, or at least affect my eating. Then a coworker had to take care of a sick kid, so I ended up doing my job and her job today. Kept me busy and out of trouble so I'm not complaining! OH and TMI but there was blood in my stool and I almost freaked out. I'm finally consistently doing well and NOW I have blood in my stool?!
And now the part that really upset me today. One of my coworkers came up to me and said, "Hey Skinny!" I'm enough in a recovered mindset that this comment did not make me even the least bit happy. It made me kind of angry. Ed wants me to find my identity in thinness, so when people are also identifying by how thin/not thin I am, I get kind of pissed. I mean, what's she going to say when I'm healthy? I don't want to be identified by thinness because when I inevitably gain weight as I recover, I feel like I'm letting people down. Which is EXACTLY what Ed wants to happen.
Oh haha, and you know when you're starting to regain your healthy status and your stomach is GINORMOUS?! Yes. I could probably pass as pregnant. Strangely, I'm okay with it. Yes, it sucks BUT at least it's a healthy baby right? :P Seriously though, I'm okay with it as long as I know it's a good thing and it means I'm taking care of my body.
I'm thinking of making a post about what I eat in a day, especially now I'm on a vegan diet. Maybe I can dispel any worry I'm living off of celery and carrots. I really want to show you guys how diverse my vegan meal plan truly is!