My body: That was a nice healthy meal! But I'm still hungry.
Me: No you're not. You're just being greedy. You don't need more food.
My body: Uh, yes I DO need more food. I'm trying to repair all the damage you've done and I need supplies for that.
Me: I'm giving you four times more than I gave to you before- be happy with what you get! I'm sure you can manage with less. I don't want to get fat and if I give you more, I'm going to end up gaining too much weight.
I feel as though I'm stuck in this I-really-feel-uncomfortable-in-my-body mindset and difficult to break out of it. I had a lot of behaviors yesterday and purged once today. I think I've pinpointed the problem- I'm not letting myself eat the amount my body is asking of me. When I eat and am still hungry, I end up eating more and feeling guilty about it since it wasn't planned. Enters eating disorder behaviors.
Solution? Don't be so black and white! Listen to my body more. Trust my body. Easier said than done!!