Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentines Day

Today would have been my brother Tyler's 20th birthday. I miss him. I wish we could go to Borders Bookstore and split a cheese filled asiago pretzel. He'd get his root beer and I'd get my irish cream nonfat latte with whip cream. He'd read his huge computer animation programming books and I'd flip through books in my stack containing a plethora of genres, from fantasy to biographical. We'd chat in between about whatever came to mind and exchange sarcastic, witty humor whenever we could squeeze it into the conversation.

Now both Tyler and, fittingly, Borders are gone. What a bittersweet day. I selfishly want my brother back here, if only for a bit. I need his understanding, his non-judgmental but honest opinion. I need his hugs. I need the look in his eyes that told me he believed in me and loved me. 


7 comments:

  1. He still believes in you and loves you! I know that this probably isn't too much of a comfort right now. But know that you are loved! Love does not stop once the body is gone. It can live on from this world to the next! Love and Hugs!

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  2. I know theres nothing we can say to make it better but i really think your brother would be so very proud of you. You are a little fighter and you can get through this. My mum died when i was 15 and sometimes i like to think shes holding my hand through it all and even though shes not here as such,i know she is still watching over me and i think your brother is with you too in some small way xxx

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  3. It will be ok you will always remember all the times you had like going to borders, hes watching over you and knows you are a fighter. Lots of love and hugs.
    Happy brithday to your bro.

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  4. Happy Birthday to your brother. I hope you find peace and happiness in your memories of him.

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  5. Tyler is so proud of you . NO doubt. I wish he could hug you and you could share one of those days together. Thanks for sharing him and your thoughts. You are an incredible person and I am sure he loved you so much. I wish he could be here for you right now but I know he is watching over you. You are one strong person and he must have loved having such a dear sister. xx Thinking of you. Jalynn

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  6. How fitting that your brother who loved you so was born on Valentines Day. On this bittersweet day, I hope the sweetness was stronger.

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  7. Such a bittersweet day, with beautiful memories. Memories that will be forever in your heart and mind. Sending you lots of love my dear <3.xo

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